无助

昨晚所发生的事令到我迟迟未能入眠，我只好听着柔和的歌勉强帮我入眠。
躺在床上的同时，我的脑袋一只想着快乐的，害怕的，我很痛苦。我不要什么事情发生。
就算我之前看到或知道什么，我都相信他对我所说的一切，只是在骗对方，但为什么那谎言要一直说出口？那不是很矛盾吗？但我会相信他的。。。
跟朋友聊到一半时，他突然说不当我是朋友了，我很无辜，不知说错了什么，就这样定我死罪，也不知得罪了他什么。。。
就在几小时内发生了几件事情，我也不知该怎办，只有默默承受。。。

miss hubby

wednesday, his 3rd day go to work. i know he will very tired, i also got work as part time b4, but was when school holiday for few weeks o 1 mth only. but i also will know after work will very tired, i had this experience. i know wat the feeling.
cant see him also hope can listen his sound. but just now i call him he told me very tired n lazy to talk phone. i know he is tired then wanna end the call, since i am 不爽, i also will care bout him, i want him rest more, don wan him tired, its not good. i know that.
i told him frn at KL got a job, i wan listen wat he will say. but he nothin to say, still ask me faster go KL. i don wan to leave him...
even the job offer so good, but have to forgo many thing. i not dare...
i will miss die u.....